new year new me?

I have done this a couple of times taken  resolution that I am going to change myself or I am going to do this and not become that person I was or used to be. I mean tonnes of resolutions. It took me real long time to realise none of this matters no 1st January is going to be a new year or a new beginning for me until I realise from within that everyday can be a new day,every morning can  be  a bright morning if I want it to be. All I have to do is commit to myself, to fall completely in love  with myself to admire each and every imperfections I have ,to not find  new reasons everyday to love someone else instead become that someone else.All of this time I was investing myself on different things.I tried to find the missing piece of my puzzle in someone else's and I constantly failed, I failed terribly to make them happy or to be happy myself  and the day I stopped trying to do so they left, leaving me to think over and over again why would someone leave? just because I stopped trying so hard to make them happy? no it wasn't the reason. It was because I did not love myself. I did not realize that I was that missing piece of my puzzle, only I could make myself happy. Only I could fill in my insecurities. Nobody can love you until you love yourself nobody will respect you until you respect yourself people will tell you that you are fat, ugly , not lovable, not sweet, not caring and infinite things but nothing can affect you, if you know that you are perfect, even that broken piece that stays within you is beautiful,to take pride in failures, to embrace yourself , to be confident to show your crazy side. The day you start admiring yourself  everyday is going to be a new day every midnight is going to be new years midnight and then you will not have to wait for 31st December to find your new self or make new resolutions rather you will be discovering your new side every day of your life.Then everyday will add on to the chapter of your life.