Trying to fit in

Nobody tells you to be yourself, to be comfortable being you. They all try to make u fit into the rules or conditions this society has made for you. They expect you to look hot or to look decent  or to be intellectual or to be a topper or to be sophisticated and certainly they don't look for a change or regarded as imperfection.They fit u into a category of certain colour or gender  or religon and expect you to behave accordingly and somehow you are able to convince yourself that this is you! This how you should be or should feel like. If you had a heartbreak you should be sad or at rage, if u failed in academics you should feel sobby, feel bad about yourself. Nobody tells you to be not so sophisticated or to be crazy  or not to do certain stuff simply because you are not into it. As per them if you don’t agree to their norms which the so educated and know it all society has already built that are  so rigid that one can think of iron as flexible item but not the rules they got for you, you will be an example of imperfection at utmost. Don’t end up living a life which you did not choose for yourself which doesn’t consider your happiness. Is it worth giving up who you really are for something so small that doesn’t consider you as an individual but considers you as one of the sheeps in flock. Break the stereo type . Be weird be boring be entertaining be that not so sophisticated lady or that emotional man because after all we make the society not the society makes us.

Damaging oneself!

Most of us have the habit of over thinking and, now please dont say that you think real and practical scenarios because let us be real the stories you weave when you are deep into thinking didn't even existed untill you started thinking about your so called practical situations. Sitting idol lets think, lying down not sleepy lets think, got a situation to face lets think! we probably have this mindset that if we think deeper about our problems we will solve them effeciently and also the fact that thinking deep makes us wise! but let us be real, none of the above situation is helpful! why? because thinking your decisions through and thinking till you start thinking off topic are way two different things. You see when you are deep into thinking you give rise to various situations that would not even happen and are highly hypothetical and came to your mind probably because of the things you watch or see. None of it will help you in any way! here is why, firstly you are thinking of things that are not even real so high chances are they are not even gonna happen; secondly, you have a situaton to face and all you are doing is think and not work so high chances are you will end up making the problem bigger because you were busy solving the issues in your brain that did not ever happened; thirdly, when your current situation is not solved how will your future which you think you are taking care of be fine?and lastly you are damaging yourself in a way you don't even know yourself!
Now here is how to handle such situations, dont sit idle  hustle harder, make every second count not by thinking  but by doing things in short! work it out. When you have situations to face dont think about things that may happen as its consequence but face it! come up with alternative solutions and keep trying. When you are not sleepy then do something productive build yourself in that free time because let us be real when it comes upon building yourself you probably have never done that because you are here thinking of scenarios instead of working it out! Come out with things you want to work on about yourself. Time is not going to stop for anyone of us, so do not waste it by just thinking. Don't stop yourself from becoming the best version of yourself and let us be practical none of us are living perfect lives we all are fighting our own fights, not everytime is going to be a happening time which is why it is said that to die is easy but to live is hard , so now you have  a choice to make to yourself wether you want to kill every moment that you live by thinking or kill this life by standing up to situations and fighting your way through.

Perfecting Imperfection

From childhood it is embedded within us to chase after perfection, for instance when you get 9.5 your parents would ask you where did that 0.5 mark go? or in a relationship when as soon as the rough phase comes, we just start playing blame game and then blame it all upon the messy love theories for not having perfect relationship or when it comes to our career we chase after being at the top.
In this chase of life we often forget ourselves, we forget to live our lives. We spent most of our life being like our idols. We chase for perfection when being perfect is all about finding true selves, facing the rough phase, accepting failures and embracing the flaws. It is about to not blindly follow something because the society  expects you to be like it or trying hard to become like someone. Be who you are , wake up everyday and admire yourself, accept all the wrong decisions you made, stand up to face the  consequences. Stop running ,stop following something that society has already built  for you and just take a break. Just give some days to yourself ,discover your own self. It may sound uncanny like? who have I been living as ? it sounds funny to me too because I am like oh c'mon I bought that stuff according to my likes or I did so because I wanted to. But just think deeper, didn't  you chose certain subject because that is what you were expected to do. And I find it very judging because as soon as you stop living the way society expects you to all of a sudden you sound strange to them and insensible, which is why very few of us have the courage to become ourselves, to be proud about all those mistakes , those disappointing situations. We are ever ready to accept favourable results happily with a pride in fact we show it off!.Don't live a life that was made for you or expected of you, step out of the zone, live for yourself make your decisions! yes major ones too,make mistakes learn from them ,own it ! after all life is all about discovering our super complicated souls. And know this bad or good decisions you make learn from them, success or failure learn to take it with a pride, hustle but not according to what others have to say but as per yourself.

new year new me?

I have done this a couple of times taken  resolution that I am going to change myself or I am going to do this and not become that person I was or used to be. I mean tonnes of resolutions. It took me real long time to realise none of this matters no 1st January is going to be a new year or a new beginning for me until I realise from within that everyday can be a new day,every morning can  be  a bright morning if I want it to be. All I have to do is commit to myself, to fall completely in love  with myself to admire each and every imperfections I have ,to not find  new reasons everyday to love someone else instead become that someone else.All of this time I was investing myself on different things.I tried to find the missing piece of my puzzle in someone else's and I constantly failed, I failed terribly to make them happy or to be happy myself  and the day I stopped trying to do so they left, leaving me to think over and over again why would someone leave? just because I stopped trying so hard to make them happy? no it wasn't the reason. It was because I did not love myself. I did not realize that I was that missing piece of my puzzle, only I could make myself happy. Only I could fill in my insecurities. Nobody can love you until you love yourself nobody will respect you until you respect yourself people will tell you that you are fat, ugly , not lovable, not sweet, not caring and infinite things but nothing can affect you, if you know that you are perfect, even that broken piece that stays within you is beautiful,to take pride in failures, to embrace yourself , to be confident to show your crazy side. The day you start admiring yourself  everyday is going to be a new day every midnight is going to be new years midnight and then you will not have to wait for 31st December to find your new self or make new resolutions rather you will be discovering your new side every day of your life.Then everyday will add on to the chapter of your life.