Days Of A Not So Complicated Girl

Introduction

It was a casual day just like any other the sun was going down and the moon was coming up and as she lied down on her bed she realised the times she had been lied upon so all of a sudden she sits thinking that she would never be lied upon. And started to think to herself if she had done this this , was there a chance that she wouldn't be left alone? what could be the possibility for her to be not alone just like right now in the mere future, what if this was the reality of her life with which she had to live for the rest of her life. She looked out of the window near her bed and gazed to the stars and thought to herself this is the same sky every human on this earth is sharing with me the stars the moon the clouds then why cant someone share their time and interests with me? why in spite of having so many social media platforms she was all alone and in spite of having thousands of followers friends she did not have someone to talk to but herself? was it the beginning of her adulthood? or her inability of understanding the world.

Chapter 2

Survived another night and welcoming a new morning. Even when the sun was at its best the light did not feel bright enough to lighten the room, with one eyes opened and the other closed  she woke up that morning from the sleepless night she had, she sighed morning again! It almost felt like the light of the sun was causing pain in her eyes and the hustle of the world was unbearable to watch. Somehow watching people made her feel more lonely than she was, however she had to live by the day! Sticking to her routine and following it blindly another day passed , and Alas! once again night had approached and she was feeling more of herself and there was sudden energy and happiness that was all over her mind.
Looking at the moon and the darkness that came by it she thought to herself how can anyone be scared of the dark? isn't darkness the only thing in the world that soothes you, that gives you peace, in the dark everything is still, everything is beautiful. Thinking that she felt petty on others who could not understand the beauty of the night time. As the clock was ticking she began to think of all the things that had happened during the day and somehow every detail of the day started to come back to her even the ones she thought was of no importance, and as she listened to those repeated songs of the same playlist feeling every word by the heart ,she said to herself Zubeda its no big deal! people are meant to be this complicated it is alright if you don't understand them.
As she was trying hard to console herself but deep down she felt she was at fault, that may be it wasn't others this whole time but her. But then why didn't she change herself? was she too stubborn to change for good? or was she too weak to stand up for good?

Spreading smiles
In this vast universe of diverse living animals how often do we come across the human species? and then to not to complicate it further how often do we come across the different kinds of human sapiens?
Now you will wonder what? let me take it step by step, as everyday comes and goes with your choice or without it you come across hundreds of people, now you would think I talk to only handful of people in a day or I don't think so or what is this girl talking about? but if you come out of your zone and look to the right and the left to the skies and the ground your feet is touching every particle of this world is connected to the aura of the person that passed by it. We never see it we never know them but we can feel it, just like you can know when you sit at some table in a fast food chain you always have two kinds of tables either clean or either still having the remains of the food someone ate there before you , in our busy lives we might not consider it as something that catches our attention but definitely this surely tells about the aura of the person who has been there before. We knowingly or unknowingly affect others even  the small things you do that you think is nothing, somehow it is like the decision you make everyday either to influence someone to do better or to do worst. You might not know but your small gesture like offering someone needy your seat or helping someone cross the road or just telling someone that they can do it or telling someone they deserve to be happy or to offer someone water who knows how long this list can go? but the bottom line is everyday when you wake up till the moment you fall asleep you make choices, choice to wish others good morning, choices to make someone smile, choices that you don't know can affect someone can give a ray of hope to someone. You don't know if the person sitting next to you in the train or standing in the queue at some fast food chain or someone around you might be going through a real hard time may be depression may be your act of generosity, kindness ,thankfulness brightness positivity ignites a tiny flame of hope in them to do better, to think positive, to have faith , to believe in themselves. So as your days passes by don't forget to be not rude, we all can have bad days bad times but don't you remember watching a kid enjoying his freedom in the rain or an elder man giving you blessing or some stranger passing you a wide smile wishing you a good day gave you the strength to live by those times.

Will you be my valentine?
Usually around this year pressure is at its peak. If you are single then you feel more lonely and if you are dating someone you feel coerced to buy the best unique and never gifted before gift ignoring all the facts like what one actually needs or what could actually make their life smoother or the fact that none of this is a measuring scale of your love. We have certainly succeeded in making a superficial day an important validation for our emotions that we hold for specially our partners. But why? Why only our partners? Why gifting? Why only this day?
Don't be that person who needs a particular day to express their love for someone. Dont be that person who knows only one meaning of love . Dont be the person who needs society's validation infact their partners validation too (because if your partner genuinely loves you , you won't have to try to get validation) . Hold depth , broaden your horizon . Spread love and affection everyday not only to your partner but to everyone that you come across everyday. Pass a smile, be generous, be kind , be respectful. Dont believe only in receiving but also giving , gift people you love your faith , your understanding, your time , your trust. Then you wont need a day to strengthen your bond or to express your feelings .

What is a women empowerment?
Is it working at odd hours or working at a powerful position or working as a housewife?  In our daily lives we come across a lot of articles talking about it but I believe it is more of flackery than it was really about! This movement is  about the inner strength that every woman holds, the light of knowledge that can ignite the world with great spirits. It is more about choosing to be whatever they want to become even if it means homemaker. It is about embracing womanhood and encouraging and letting other women know too that they are worth it, even if they don't hold any qualified degree they still have a lot to offer to the coming generation because their experience says it all. Whether from giving birth to a baby or to getting married to a man and accepting a whole new world with a smile or to become a perfect mother or to become a strict parent she knows it all. This power is about not treating a women on mensuration any different instead showing respect to their spirit , about how they work with same stamina throughout even when they are having hormonal imbalance. This movement it not only restricted to education but also body type, a woman to be able to dress whatever way she wants, to choose any body type she wants, to get her hairs coloured or to have no hair at all. Everything should be her own choice and not something this society expects her to be like. People body slam women for not having thigh gaps or for having flabs of fat or stretch marks and still willing to wear swim suits. The society needs to stop pressurising women to be the perfect image because apart from the gender we are humans too! and darling we want to make mistakes a lot of them and learn from them not judged? But can a woman afford to make a mistake? will she be given another chance? a chance to not be so perfect?
Everyone wants to talk about powering woman but what about teaching not only men but some women too that woman can commit mistakes, they can be drunk at night but you are not supposed to take her advantage instead act sober and make her reach home safely, to stop looking at woman as a sex object and rather try to know her in depth, get to know her from the inside, the person she is not just her body, that raising a baby is not only her duty but his too, that adding someone's surname after their name is not only two words joined together but two relations that have to be equally balanced and to keep it balanced is his and hers duty. We are so much caught up in this movement that we fail to recognize the one in a million man that we might have met in our lives. This movement is not about hating a particular gender or fighting over who gets the best but about equality and it can only prevail if both the sides do their part.

Trying to fit in

Nobody tells you to be yourself, to be comfortable being you. They all try to make u fit into the rules or conditions this society has made for you. They expect you to look hot or to look decent  or to be intellectual or to be a topper or to be sophisticated and certainly they don't look for a change or regarded as imperfection.They fit u into a category of certain colour or gender  or religon and expect you to behave accordingly and somehow you are able to convince yourself that this is you! This how you should be or should feel like. If you had a heartbreak you should be sad or at rage, if u failed in academics you should feel sobby, feel bad about yourself. Nobody tells you to be not so sophisticated or to be crazy  or not to do certain stuff simply because you are not into it. As per them if you don’t agree to their norms which the so educated and know it all society has already built that are  so rigid that one can think of iron as flexible item but not the rules they got for you, you will be an example of imperfection at utmost. Don’t end up living a life which you did not choose for yourself which doesn’t consider your happiness. Is it worth giving up who you really are for something so small that doesn’t consider you as an individual but considers you as one of the sheeps in flock. Break the stereo type . Be weird be boring be entertaining be that not so sophisticated lady or that emotional man because after all we make the society not the society makes us.

Damaging oneself!

Most of us have the habit of over thinking and, now please dont say that you think real and practical scenarios because let us be real the stories you weave when you are deep into thinking didn't even existed untill you started thinking about your so called practical situations. Sitting idol lets think, lying down not sleepy lets think, got a situation to face lets think! we probably have this mindset that if we think deeper about our problems we will solve them effeciently and also the fact that thinking deep makes us wise! but let us be real, none of the above situation is helpful! why? because thinking your decisions through and thinking till you start thinking off topic are way two different things. You see when you are deep into thinking you give rise to various situations that would not even happen and are highly hypothetical and came to your mind probably because of the things you watch or see. None of it will help you in any way! here is why, firstly you are thinking of things that are not even real so high chances are they are not even gonna happen; secondly, you have a situaton to face and all you are doing is think and not work so high chances are you will end up making the problem bigger because you were busy solving the issues in your brain that did not ever happened; thirdly, when your current situation is not solved how will your future which you think you are taking care of be fine?and lastly you are damaging yourself in a way you don't even know yourself!
Now here is how to handle such situations, dont sit idle  hustle harder, make every second count not by thinking  but by doing things in short! work it out. When you have situations to face dont think about things that may happen as its consequence but face it! come up with alternative solutions and keep trying. When you are not sleepy then do something productive build yourself in that free time because let us be real when it comes upon building yourself you probably have never done that because you are here thinking of scenarios instead of working it out! Come out with things you want to work on about yourself. Time is not going to stop for anyone of us, so do not waste it by just thinking. Don't stop yourself from becoming the best version of yourself and let us be practical none of us are living perfect lives we all are fighting our own fights, not everytime is going to be a happening time which is why it is said that to die is easy but to live is hard , so now you have  a choice to make to yourself wether you want to kill every moment that you live by thinking or kill this life by standing up to situations and fighting your way through.

Perfecting Imperfection

From childhood it is embedded within us to chase after perfection, for instance when you get 9.5 your parents would ask you where did that 0.5 mark go? or in a relationship when as soon as the rough phase comes, we just start playing blame game and then blame it all upon the messy love theories for not having perfect relationship or when it comes to our career we chase after being at the top.
In this chase of life we often forget ourselves, we forget to live our lives. We spent most of our life being like our idols. We chase for perfection when being perfect is all about finding true selves, facing the rough phase, accepting failures and embracing the flaws. It is about to not blindly follow something because the society  expects you to be like it or trying hard to become like someone. Be who you are , wake up everyday and admire yourself, accept all the wrong decisions you made, stand up to face the  consequences. Stop running ,stop following something that society has already built  for you and just take a break. Just give some days to yourself ,discover your own self. It may sound uncanny like? who have I been living as ? it sounds funny to me too because I am like oh c'mon I bought that stuff according to my likes or I did so because I wanted to. But just think deeper, didn't  you chose certain subject because that is what you were expected to do. And I find it very judging because as soon as you stop living the way society expects you to all of a sudden you sound strange to them and insensible, which is why very few of us have the courage to become ourselves, to be proud about all those mistakes , those disappointing situations. We are ever ready to accept favourable results happily with a pride in fact we show it off!.Don't live a life that was made for you or expected of you, step out of the zone, live for yourself make your decisions! yes major ones too,make mistakes learn from them ,own it ! after all life is all about discovering our super complicated souls. And know this bad or good decisions you make learn from them, success or failure learn to take it with a pride, hustle but not according to what others have to say but as per yourself.